We would go places, and she’d tell me I wasn’t there, that I imagined it. One time, we went to the beach, and I had a photo of the sunset. She said she took it to show her friend because I wasn’t there. But I knew I was. Did I really make it up? It made me doubt my own memories, like I didn’t know what was real.
UNSEEN ECHOES - Objects of Domestic Abuse | Photography Project & Exhibition

Beach

We would go places, and she’d tell me I wasn’t there. That I imagined it.

At first, I thought she was joking. Being dramatic, messing around. But she wasn’t.

One time, we went to the beach. I remembered the cold sand under my feet, the salty air, the way the sky turned shades of gold and pink as the sun dipped below the horizon. I even had a photo of the sunset. Proof.

But when I mentioned it later, she just shook her head. “What are you talking about? You weren’t there.”

I laughed, confused. “Of course I was.”

Then she pulled out the same photo, held it up. “I took this,” she said. “I showed my friend. Why would I say you were there if you weren’t?”

I knew I was there.

I could feel the memory, solid in my mind. The wind in my hair. The sound of the waves crashing. The exact moment I lifted my phone to take the picture.

But she spoke with so much certainty. So much confidence.

Did I really make it up?

It made me doubt my own memories, like I didn’t know what was real anymore.

Like maybe I was disappearing, little by little.

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